Dissecting You Outta My Mind

Well…I think I had enough..
Waited this evening…
As I waited yesterday..
And a thousand or even a few more days..
For you to come..
For you to hug me…
And make me feel warm.
But not any more..
Tonight… I’ll put an end ..
And end to an ended up thing..
An end to the swing.

I open the door of the dissecting room..
Enter smoothly as I dreamt of entering you …
I take out my mind out of me.. carefully..
Then place it to the dissecting table..
I have your words in a tray…
Your words that are sharper than anything…
Words that used to cut me deep…
Words that I thought to let go…
But then decided to keep.

I take the sharpest word..in my hand..
Then give an incision ..
In the middle of my mind’s chest wall.
Emotions comes out..and decides to fall..

With the help of the harsh wards of yours..
I take apart whole of my mind’s anterior chest wall..
Silly emotions yet keep to fall.

I take out my heart which was filled with fake love of yours..
I take pain and give my mind a wash with it…
I take out you out of me, my mind and the me who used to be yours..
Then exhausted yet satisfied me have a sit.

My mind wakes up in dreams…
My mind now can smile rather to scream…
Now my mind is detoxified..
Now it is free from you who lied.


© Mukit Osman Chawdhury.